Hurt that shows in the eyes

        When I'm hurt, sad or mad, about to cry, you can see it in my eyes. They turn dark blue, and watery.
You can tell easily when I'm hurt. That was today. That sorta friend I have wishes me dead. What kinda friend is that? Wait that isn't a friend. I was sick yesterday, and that's when she said thank god if I was dead. 2 people told me that. I don't care if she isn't a close friend because, it hurts no matter what! Were not friends now at all. I haven't been able to look at her for the last 4days. The worst part about it is I have to sit by her in all my core classes but, one. So I stare at the walls facing opposite directions from her.
           How do you deal with being hurt by some one you thought was your friend?
   
 I didn't before, but I'm gonna learn to, because, no one can stand to see me like this! One of my actual best friends could tell and he's trying to cheer me up. It's not working, but I put a fake smile just to make the world feel better. When you do though, does it hurt others or just yourself in the end?