You are driving me insane!

   How can I miss the very one who destroys me?


  Right now I'm missing my old best friend :( :/
I'm totally insane, she's the reason I have nightmares every night.
The reason I cry for no reason.
The reason I hate part of myself.
She's part of the reason I'm self conscious.
The reason I am who I am!
The reason I'm scared of the "silence."
The reason I love winter, and at the same time terrified of snow killing me in cold.
The reason I am scared of everything, and everyone.
The reason I don't think I'm good enough.
The reason I don't try to acheive my high standard goals because, I don't think I can, because, I am not good enough!
The reason I want to scream!

                                                                              -from my living dreams/nightmares.